Brutally Honest

Wednesday, April 3, 2013

This blog has been brewing in me for awhile (well, I have a few up in my head I just kinda suck at writing them out sometimes). I follow a lot of inspiring bloggers and their honesty has really helped me in my journey...and I felt the need to be brutally here it goes...

This is what 233 lbs looks like....and I'm VERY proud of myself.

I have learned so much this year (I'll talk about a few of them on another day) but the most important thing I have learned is that the number on the scale means very little!! I have been this weight before, but my clothes didn't fit as well, I couldn't run as far (or at all) and I didn't feel so strong. The number doesn't tell you that I've lost fat and gained muscle. 

(They all weigh exactly the same)

I saw this image awhile ago and it really hit home that the number doesn't really matter as much (and that I'm just too short...hahahaha). We all carry weight differently and are just different people. Feeling comfortable in our skin and getting out there and living the lives that we want to, THAT is far more important than the number on the scale. 

Yesterday my kids and I went through some of my race medals (I think there were 9 in the box I found). I put each one around their necks and I was filled with pride over what I have accomplished. Yes, I didn't do it in record time...but I DID them! I set a goal and actually did it! I am trying to live the life that I want to be living, and I refuse to wait until I'm a certain size or weight to accomplish them. Mind you, I'm not going to pose in a bikini...but that's not really a goal of mine! ;) I'm proud that this big girl can do an hour of Zumba at full intensity just like the fit girls and I TOTALLY want a shirt like this for the 5K races...

something like Overweight, Winded, Red Faced and Ahead of You! hahahaha I won't lie...on my last race my sweatshirt was riding up and I kept pulling it back down over my behind. After awhile I was like...what's the point? If they don't like my big bum in their face...they should speed up! ;)

I am a work in progress and I have a lot of goals I want to accomplish and don't want to stay where I am...but I'm trying very hard to be proud of where I am RIGHT NOW...and not saving my pride for when I am a certain size or weight. I know I'm not the only one that has looked at a photo...remembering how fat I felt at the time...and how I would LOVE to look like that again! 

Thanks for letting me share...I'm hoping with a lot of hard work, I can show you what lighter weights look like! :)


  1. This totally hits home for me, too! In high school I was super active and fit and weighed 196 lbs. I just didn't get it. I'm still no where near where I'd like, but I also know that the BMI chart will never be accurate for me. It's definitely a journey!

    1. You always looked amazing...then and now! :)